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careers, campaigns and movements.

my name is Leah, i'm from london and i'm new to this site.


i'd really like to get involved with an organisation or movement to do with women's rights, feminism or equality and justice for lgbt ppl, and other campaigns like ending street harassment and sexism - because that's what i'm really passionate about! However, I have social anxiety disorder and it's an obstacle in my life that i'm gradually defeating - i find it hard to do certain things because of this mental barrier... especially when attempting to find jobs :/ i don't know where to start with getting myself involved in these areas without my social anxiety getting in the way!

mushmoonz Aug 10 · Rate: 5 · Comments: 1 · Tags: equality, justice, lesbian, lgbt, jobs, career, lgbt campaign, womens rights, feminism, social anxiety, anxiety, poc, campaign, organisation
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Me an a short update.

Ok, so I've not been on in a while and I won't be on over the weekend, so I just want to give a quick update of what's been going on.

 

Let's start this about three weeks ago. On the first week of my holidays I was fine. I as actually happy ad quite relaxed. My brother (Who I really don't want to talk too much on, he's a horrible person) was off on Army Cadet camp and I was home alone for most of the week, which gave me time to relax and think about what's happened to me recently.

 

So then the second week came round and, for a reason I'm still not sure about, I felt absolutely shit. I could not sleep at all and when I did I slept restlessly. I was tired and exhausted and I could not think straight. By the end of that week I felt completely horrible. Then my brother came home. We found out he got kicked out of cadets for violent conduct, which just shows the type of person he was.

 

I slept through most of the weekend, but for the small time I was awake all I heard was arguing.

 

So then came Monday. And since then this week has just really picked up. I started my computer course and I have had so much fun. I have met so many great people and the app me and my group has been working on is really good. I will continue this another time because I have to go. I am staying at Birmingham over the weekend for he presentation and the heats (It's a competition too) and I need to get going to my centre, buses are un-reliable so  leave about 40 mins before I am supposed to be there. I still end up late.

 

So bye people, speak to you all soon! xx

 

^Amyfen19

Amyfen191 Aug 9 · Tags: 191, me and my, update
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Intro and Moan about Singlehood

Hey, im fairly new to this site still so hey everyone, Im Gavin, im gay and single. would quite like to get chatting to people so message me if u like =]

 

Also, does anyone else feel its kinda boring being single over summer holidays? i do, mainly because brother has a girlfreind. However there are very few openly gay/bi people up near me apart from domination phone chat sessions and any i do know are good friends and i dont want to ruin the friendship. Does anyone else live in places where there are limited gay/bi people?

gav16 Aug 7 · Comments: 2
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College! Woo!
(just so all you non-Scots actually know what I'm talking about, college in Scotland isn't sixth year. I've already done my equivalent of A-Levels and am moving onto the acting equivalent of University, but I need to do two years of college first because acting is a different type of course to a four-year degree - the main difference being it's a three year course)

This morning I was a bit sad that my exam results were actually OK. The college I wanted to go to had given me an unconditional, but to the course the level I've already passed really well, so we'd have had to pay for it. The other one (still a fantastic college) wanted a C in English for the course I actually want to study, and would have been free because Scotland's the best.

I got a B in English, so I have to go to the second college because money is tight and stuff. I was upset because I couldn't go to the first one, then that faded away. I remembered all the things I loved about the one I'm going to; the lighting was fantastic, I really got on with the lecturers, etc; and the fire started burning in me again. After a shitty few months what with coming out and whatever I'd lost my drive to even get out of bed in the morning, but I remember why I even put myself through all those auditions and paperwork and shit now - I am an actor.

I feel it burning in my soul, I feel the heat of the stage lanterns on my brow wherever I walk, the deadly silence of the crowd when I deliver my most powerful lines rings in my ears. I live my life on the stage, the rest is the farce. Right next to the little signs saying "I am trans*" and "I like women" is one that eclipses them both. I am an actor, an actor is me. I'd forgotten.

It'll still hurt that my body's all wrong, my family is still torn apart by who I am, I'm still single and with very few friends - but I have my goal before me again. I can see the path I've stumbled from and I can begin my way back onto it. On the second of September I'll be in my element again, and nothing's gonna stop me being me.
hobbit161 Aug 6 · Comments: 1 · Tags: college, identity, acting, goals, future
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The Twilight films and books *Spoilers*

Finally,finished reading and watching all the Twilight books/films. Don't know what to do now, I feel that I have withdrawal from the story of it, I really want to know what happened to some the characters.

Like Renesmee and the Volturi

 

I really think the next film/book should be about Renesmee growing up and the Volturi returning (the film/book still from Bella's view), the Cullen's,the wolfs (along with there friends that are willing to fight) fight and win (Nobody on the vampire and wolf side of the fight dies). Effectively they become the new leaders of the Volturi (the Cullen's only, because the wolfs don't want to run the Volturi but they help guard as they use too).

They move the Volturi base of operations to the Cullen's house in Forks.

 

There should be another book/film after that, it would be continue from the other film/book. It would be about the Cullen's reinventing the Volturi into something that is an all most opposite to the old one, they make it a choice to follow the rules of the new Volturi. One of the new rules that you must drink more animal blood than human, effectively becoming 'vegetarian' (like 10 animals to 1 human an mouth) but the coven (that had Victoria and James) the remaining people try to take over the new Volturi but they fail and the Cullen's stay in charge. The rest of the know vampires become 'vegetarian'. Near the end of the film, Edward and Bella pass on the leadership of the new Volturi to Esme and Carlisle.

 

I think that would be good closer to the films/books because you find out what happened to Renesmee and that the Volturi are destroyed and all most all of the worlds vampires become 'vegetarian'. Edward and Bella can finally relax because there will never be any more danger.

 

What is everyone's option on this, what do you think should happen next?

jessicat99 Aug 6
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Chats
hey guys its me again, just saying that I came on here to meet new people and make friends so whenever you want Im open to having a chat with anyone! so add me whenever :)
Markh96 Aug 6
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Sisterly love
Hello, this is my first blog post and may seem a bit random!

I don't think I'll be coming out to the world any time soon, but the prospect of coming out to my sister- if I ever do- seems a very daunting one. It makes me feel bad knowing I could come out to one sister but not the other. It's just because I know she has somehow formed a very bad view of bisexuals, that they're 'greedy' and such like. She has no problem, well not that I know of, with lesbians- which just annoys me because it's really hypocritical of her! 

--does anyone have a situation remotely like this, or been through something like this????--

Burstingmybubble Aug 5 · Comments: 2 · Tags: bisexuality, sisters
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Positive Times
I was going to post a rant about my Mum (yet again) but I've been reading over my old posts, and I've decided I'm far too negative online. In real life and on Facebook and such I pretend to be all positive and happy so people don't worry, but when it's anonymous I only focus on the negative things in my life. I've been feeling quite shitty recently, even my friends in the real life have noticed. I'm going to list all the good things in my life to see if I can remember to think about them at my low moments. (apologies for the initials, I'm a bit paranoid about internet security)

Despite the fact I have many soul-sucking 'friends', I do have ones which I would do anything for and they for me. Firstly, SL is my closest friend. We live a days travel and a hundred pound journey apart, but I know that whenever we need each other we'll be there in a heart beat. Day or night, we're both always ready to take a call from each other. If I could only spend time with one person for the rest of my life, it'd be her.

Then there's AT. He was there for me when I was nervous, alone and friendless. He introduced me to so many friends and girlfriends, and most importantly SL. I feel equally close to him and her, but when I'm with her it feels like we've never been apart. I know I can always count on AT, no matter what happens, even though he also lives a long way from me.

Then there's MH, my only true friend in Scotland. Even though he's male and I'm usually only attracted to women, his personality gets past all that and I love him anyway. I don't even mind that he probably doesn't like me back, I'm happy just being able to spend time with him.

I want him to feel the same and for us to be happy together, but I'm fine that he (most likely) doesn't. Some days I feel like going around all the local shops and get enough of whatever drugs cheap enough for me to take and just run away from all the stress and pain forever, but I just text him and he's at my flat near on instantly if he can be. Even one message reminds me that I have something worth living for, and that's enough.

And last but by no-where near least is you. QYN and it's members are never far from me when I need you. All I need to do is fire up my laptop and I have a place to vent with no repercussions. You helped me come out as transgender, helped me work up the courage to actually go to the sexual health clinic when I was worried I'd caught something (luckily I hadn't), and helped me finally get round to e-mailing the gender clinic in Glasgow and get an appointment booked.

I've had two meetings with a mental health councilor, and he made me feel like he thought I was stupid and making all my problems up because I didn't have the confidence to tell him the reason I'm so stressed out (at that point, I was still closeted). Here, even if I've felt stupid posting something, the response has always made me feel normal, included, and most importantly not alone. Thank you for being here, all of you.
hobbit161 Aug 4 · Tags: friends, happy, positive, love
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New
Errm Hey people as you can probably tell I'm new here, I open to friend requests and chats :)
Markh96 Aug 3 · Comments: 1
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Hello all
Hi my name is Chris (as you probably figured out from the name) im 17 and currently living in London, I'm not entirely sure of my sexuality yet and all that sure of how thiswebsite works either. I just thought I'd just introduce myself in the hope of meeting some new people.

I love music, more specifically indie-rock and I love Florence and the machine, I enjoy watching football and I'm an aspiring politician. So yeah, thats something about me, please feel free to share also.
SimplyChris Aug 3 · Comments: 2 · Tags: #introduction, #hi, #hello
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